Wrong Talking

People sometimes believe that having healing hopes may be what I need, but what I need is understanding. Treating me with respect feels so much like having a life. Many nights I have thoughts – hard thoughts that tell too many tricky bad stories. They say that I should not go to school, maybe I will not really have a life. Hope they are wrong.

Real friends are hard to find. People believe so many wrong ideas. One not true idea they believe is that idea that autistics tug at their mom because they want to be mean*. This is a lie. They must not love something to understand it in this way. The reason to want my head to touch my mom’s is because she makes me so calm and rooted, like a plant in the soil.

*Pablo often pulls his mom’s head to his, especially when anxious.

Palabras Equivocadas

La gente a veces cree que lo que yo necesito es tener esperanzas para curarme, pero lo que yo necesito es comprensión. El tratarme con respeto es como tener una vida propia. Muchas noches he tenido pensamientos, pensamientos difíciles, que me dicen cuentan historias engañosas y malas. Ellos me dicen que no debería ir a la escuela, que talvez yo no tenga una vida de verdad. Espero que se equivoquen.

Los verdaderos amigos son difíciles de encontrar. La gente cree erróneamente en muchas ideas. Una de esas ideas es la idea de creer que los autistas jalan a sus madres por el hecho de querer ser malos. Esto es mentira. Los que piensan de tal manera no han experimentado el amor de la manera que yo lo experimento, es por eso que no lo entienden.

La razón por la cual quiero tocar mi cabeza con la de mi mamá es porque ella me calma mucho y me hace sentir enraizado (arraigado) como una planta en la tierra.

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